The Mistress♥

The name is Yuxuan schooling at Naval Base Secondary
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14 1/2 years old
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you are my everything to mie

i really thought i could. but i cant . i cant let go , i cant forget everything that have a link with you . but i know , im really not good enough for you. wat should i do ? i thought i could forget , i thought i wont think of you anymore , but everyday the strong feeling of missing you is killing mie . imissyousomuch. why didnt i realise ? if onli , i didnt let go so easy last tym. can you come back to mie ? even as a frenz ? i really need you alot.

where is my shooting star? my blink blink ?

images of you just keep flashing out. thought i saw hym at t bus today,my heart skip for a little,but soon realised its not you. Then,the heartache start again,keep thinking about you,how we used to play with each other. how can i let go of the past? Imissyoualot,but the problem is,will you even miss mie a single bit?
All my wishes just wont come true? why cant they come true?
Its been so long ever since i see you,when can i see you again? where have you been? are you crying right now? are you drinking right now? are you .................. right now?
Who can i blame on except myself? T.T

Heys people , im back on blogging. Finally done with the guide opening house bookmark. *tiredd* anyone miss mie ? LOL. welcome mie back ~ *clap hand*
when is it the last tym u smile to mie? when is it the last tym you play with mie? when is it the last tym u talk to mie? its been so long ago. hw i wish just lik last tym,calling mie always asking mie to go out . its seem so easy last tym , yet its impossible nw .
million and million of tym , i pray for ur calls , ur msg , playing bball tgt , yet disappointment always come.
IMissYouAlotAlot . Where are you?!?!!?!?!?

Disappointed !!

kinda of disappointed . i tink i wont be able to buy new phone -.-'' cos i make spoilt two hp within a mth and dad sae i spoilt phone too fast =.='' . dhn my dad go buy i last tym hp charger and i tink mayb i will be using tat phone liaos ? seriously,i hate tat phone man . tink i wont be using tat phone much and wont send many msg le , until i gt a new hp .

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todae was lik damn sad , read newspaper just nw , saw so many news . The most sad news was the news abt the married couple and the husband jump down . and nw , the wife cant take it and jump down toos . its reali veri sad ... they should be a happy couple bt yet it turn out to be a sad ending . when i read the news , i almost cry ... the wife 's family are nw the most sad ... just lose a daughter/sister . also others new of ppl jumping down . life is so easy to end ... we should live our lives to the fullest . and nt to regret after tat or so .
We should learn to take our life seriously .

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Set mie free

i hav onli one word to sae , TIREDD ! leg was damn pain ... die lahhs , wat if tml cant walk liaos. aiya,all tis nt veri big deal , the onli big deal is HYM . i tink i reali cant move on without hym liaos . bo bian , i reali too into it le . i still rmb last tym all our memories , though we nw doesnt tok , bt somedays , sometime we will tok again ... i reali hope...pls dun be shoo cold toward mie . so god , tis is the way u wanna punish mie ? isnit tis punishment too long ? isnit tis punishment too torture ?

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i want YOU and I to be TOGETHER .

heys , back to blog once again~
been having alot prob recently . fuck the three gals .
i dun care , watever u all wan , i dun giv a damn to u . since u all wanted to apologised , tats great isnit it .
i miss those days . time reali change everything . people change toos isnit it ? i might hav change too , bt the onli thing tat i haven change is tat , i still love u . and probably , tat wont ever change .
been kinda of stress recently , too hard , life simply too hard .

HAPPY BDAE TO MABEL LAOPO !!
Heys,stay happy always okie ! love ya :)

thks for making mie look shoo pathetic . how i wish i cn just break down en cry ... but why no tear come out when i start to cry ? looking at the mirror en realised tat the person in the mirror dun look lik mie at all . it isnit mie . a shell without its spirit . tats all u cn sae to mie ? tats isnit a reason , tats a excuses . life shoo hard . just a moment,i would just break down .
sry guys , im might mia for a moment . dun miss mie k . cos i noe u wont .

even though exam hav just end,why do i still feel shoo stress . why do sth just keep draging mie down en down . seriously,just let mie noe the ans cn ? i dun wan to look lik an big idiot to noe noth abt it . those hope , those days , which belong to mie&you , are gone . everytink gone . not a single bits being left . all the ways tat i cn do , i alr do le , bt no use . u put a fire between us tat make mie cant gt closer to you . we re just lik a parallel line tat will never meet . all those days , which actually seem shoo close to mie , yet is shoo unreachable . those days,cn i hav it again ? will i hav a chance again ? though my hope dash bt im still felling deeper en deeper en nw , i cn gt out of it . i hav to continue . i just realised tat another 15 more days , its will be one year liaos , en im still hanging on .

been a long tym since i post ! let mie see wat happen tis few days...
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take 858 back to sunplaza wit mabel en weiting . dhn in the bus.........my hp did a job by sliding through the whole bus . -.-'' add alot of scratches ... en mabel,weiting keep laugh abt it ! =.='' !
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went home after oral at abt 2plus dhn meet mabel at 4plus . eat eighteen chef . dhn weiting came . went to mac at 6plus . study study study~till abt 8.40pm ? dhn went home ! wake up at 4.30am to study . morning cor weiting at 5am .
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chem remedial after social studies en eng paper 2 . went home wit weiting . meet mabel at 4plus . eat kfc . dhn went mac study dhn tio gan cos dinner tym , other ppl no sit . went other mac revise . mabel en patricia ahmei teach mie math . shan teach mie chem . dhn went home at 9.40pm ? wake up at 4.30am the next morning . meet mabel at 6am to revise . went to northpoint under blk . at 7.05 lik tat , shan come find us .
the end ! haha,lik writing compo sia . i reali hope all my subject will pass ! i first tym shoo hardworking . if nv pass,i tink i reali gotten cry~ i hope tat guy will study hard toos en pass all subjuect wit flying colours !
frenz,jiayous alright !

rain...faster rain~why cant it just rain ? memories keep flashing back from my mind... im nt tat brave as u seem...i wish i cn tear off the mask upon my face en run to ur arms en cry out...bt nw i cant isnt it ? rmb last tym ? we meet up everydae . i reali cant tahan without seeing u one dae . i would feel shoo weird. rmb im always huging ur tat '.. ...' bag ? u even chase mie wanting ur bag back . dhn when i walking in the rain when u all re in the shelter , u sae ' you siao ar,why keep walking in the rain,come in shelter lahhs ' rmb ? im sry bt i reali cant forgt . every single bits of our memories flash back to mie every single day ...
die,tml oral...hope my voice wont go off ! pray~~

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heys! A gd news for all,ITS FRIDAY ! MYE start today. hopefully i cn pass my MT and eng paper 1 . after MYE , went to sbw en ate KFC with mabel en jiahui . Dhn went to the toilet , mie en jiahui keep plaeing otw to toilet . AND ! when i wan go into the toilet , jiahui pull my bag en i keep laugh dhn my books on my hand drop DHN ! my social studies textbook en chemisty textbook drop into the toilet bowl . LMAO ! mie en jiahui keep laugh. dhn when mabel noe,she also laugh =) dhn mabel sae "aiya,i feel lik my handphone going drop." dhn...out of sudden,my handphone drop . =.='' ! just right after wat she sae ! well,we keep laugh the whole day . Dhn nw , my index finger is swollen until veri fat . dhn gt green and purple colour . tink gotten take a few day for it to gt well ? en last but nt least, mabel laopo,thks for everytink . u always been thr when i sad . en thks for letting mie laugh lik siao everyday ! en make mie wont feel shoo useless when i feel at least i gt sth gd , which is 'cn make u smile en cheer up when u re sad'.
en also,jiahui,u also make mie laugh everyday .
becos of u all,my day brighten .
i love you guys !

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why my life become lik tis ?

suddenly,lik waking up from a dream...suddenly realised,no matter how much i do,we will nv be back lik last tym. its reali hurt.noeing the fact ... 24/h Dreaming abt u,tinking abt u,missing our past .
i dun understand , why all of u keep saeing HER HER HER and HER ?! did u noe how my feeling ? last tym,we use to be tgt everyday...why nw,all i cn hear from u two is HER HER HER ????!! my heart hurts...shoo pain...i reali veri tiredd le...i cant continue on liao...im struck here ... nw without u... i reali cant move on...

down down down...my mood was down to the worst . why does everytink making mie shoo stress. MYE coming and yet i haven even gt the mood to study for it . and thr others tink tat i dun feel lik saeing . why must keep hurting mie ? i dun understand , why must god make mie until shoo worst . forcing myself to put a brave en smile on my face , yet down in my heart,its bleed . nw more worst,i cant even smile . wats going on wit mie ?! i feel lik crying,tear keep coming out,bt i had to keep a strong en happy mask . i dun wan continue on . my life is struck here . struck here without u .
god,is it how u wanna punish mie ? making mie breaking down at any moment ? making mie isnt the same old mie . spare mie pls. tis all suck . i suck toos . stop making mie hate life .
i cant continue on without u . god pls,spare mie .

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Finally laptop okie liaos ! happy happy. haven update for shoo long liao. been damn angry,sad,unhappy tis few days. mid-year coming soon. few more days. gotten work hard. S-T-R-E-S-S !!

god,pls bring mie back to the past~

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the truth will be out somedays. I noe god will help us. to tat simply hym/her,im nt such gal. we been frenz for 3years le. u didnt understand after all. pls,open ur eyes big big and u will realise alot tinks. im been telling myself nt to cry,yet,i cry. over and over again,u crush our trust. i wanted to forgiv u,bt u lie over again and again. hav u care abt our feeling for just once ? u onli care for urself afterall.
2.4km today and i PASS !! 17minutes55seconds !
you noe it yourself. ya,when will we stop being the bad person ? push all the blames to us ?! nvm,sua. somedays u will noe my powers.
walk back to the places we all once have fun at. seem shoo happy . the more i tink,i more i want to go back to the past.
wat should i do ? im reali stress. having to cry myself to slp everynight , everynight tink of the past,we used to shared tgt. i tot u understand mie,bt yet....it seem to be wrong. i hate crying to slp everynight,i cant slp well. everynight,hoping to receive ur msg,telling mie sry...i should have noe tat u re nt such person,its my wrong to trust hym/her. when will tat day come ?

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i just realised,its wasnt the same anymore...all tis tym i been lieing to myself...wat a fool i am.
walk around the place the memories we hav once,its was lik yesterday. actually i dun wan to go,bt heng shun keep beg mie go,i scare to see you all. dunno how to face you all. bt lucky,when i reach tat tym,its raining. guess you all wont be ther. as im expected,u all are nt ther. the stone at my heart finally drop. bt somehow,i feel a big disappointment tat i cant see you. walk around the places when we always plae wit each other. i just realised tat memories cant be bring back. bringing back memories must have both of us. bt just wit mie one person,how i bring back the memories ? i did cried,i did...but lucky,no one see. i was alone . i just find out tat mie and mabel words on the floor was gone...all was left was you and 'dem' words. suddenly feel lik being kick out of ur world. ='(
but i know...i will have to continue waiting...it might hurt and meanwhile,i might cries,but i will still wait~

• i know tat u did care about mie AS A FRIEND' and tat was enough really,.. I did pray to god tat when i wake up ,i will receive a msg from you , asking mie whether wan go play bball anot,just lik last tym. i been praying , but why it didnt come true. am i dreaming all tis while ? if i am,i wan to wake up from tis dreams,and to be back to your side.

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feel damn pissed off just becos of tat simply 'somebody' . wat should i do ? i wont forgive. i been forgive and forget for all the tinks. haven i done enough ?! from nw onward,i wont forgive and forget wat u done to us. we will pay you back everytink u done and every tears we cried just becos of wat u did. WE WILL PAY BACK.
i wont let you off shoo easily...just becos of you,we have to suffer ?! who re you to decide our happiness !? why wont you even feel guilty when u face us. i swear tat i wont ever believe u again. i seen through all ur lies. fuck up by ur lies.i cant understand why do u wan do tis to us ? for wat ? u re just simply shoo immature. how old re u liao ? still do all tis shit ! we re nt fool. dun treat us lik fool. cos of u,we hav to be hurt ? i tell u,i wont let u win. let u taste the feeling wan ? being hate by the guys u lik shoo much. wan taste how the feeling ?

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heys! tml gotten jaiyous liao. gt dance bi sai! gal guides,jiayous alrite~
gotten wake up abt 4plus am tml morning. my god,i scare i wont be able to wake up.
mum bdae today. HAPPY BDAE MARMIE. ILOVEYOU~ haha=] gotten cut cake liao.
gotten hav a busy day tml shoo i wont be posting much. hehe. bye frenz~

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im shoo heart heart broken nw.
how i wish...i could hav a damn serious sick tat cause mie to lose the part of memory. or mayb i could bang a car and lose memory ? bt im scare.nt scare of death bt i scare wat if i will nv c u again ?
i dunno how im gotten survive without you.
is tis the end of us ? our 3years of friendship or watever,is tis the end ?
my heart really break apart when i noe. why do i gain hope in the first place.i should hav dash dem no matter wat. i cn onli blame myself.

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HAPPY BELATED BDAE TO SNSD TAEYEON !
I should post taeyeon bdae ytd.bt i forgt. damn mie.
haha.i quite happy todae ? cn sae shoo? cos....haha its a secret and im nt telling u =/ ~ hahahahaha. damn it,shoo baichi,im toking to the com. LoLs -.-
k lahhs,march one week holiday coming! yea!! no study! shall end here. takecare lurhhs guys!

HAPPY BDAE TO YOU~
HAPPY BDAE TO YOU~
HAPPY BDAE TO WEITING~~
HAPPY BDAE TO YOU~
my three years frenz! i reali wan our friendship to continue forever! have a wonderful bdae!
let mie say wat happen todae alrite.
first,still after sch we rush home! bath,change and go out. meet mabel,liqing and jiahui dhn mie and mabel,went ......... to buy weiting bdae present. due to shortage of tym,we rush to amk without eating our lunch. Dhn jh and linying go other place. Dhn mie,mabel,liqing and weiting[bdae girl] go buy movie ticket!guess wat we watch ? ALICE IN WONDERLAND ! 3D de ! my god,is damn nice de lurhhs ! dhn after tat,we went to take neoprint until siao. until all my money use up liao. haha! dhn weiting nid go meet family celebrate liao. shoo mie,mabel and liqing went 18chef eat~ abt 6.07pm liao,we dhn eat our lunch ! hehe,nice rite ? lols. dhn went to ... realise tat,tat person is nt ther. shoo i went home liao.
i cant say,i cant say out loud tat i reali veri veri miss you~when cn we tok?when cn u dun aviod mie ? why am i still a baichi waiting for u ?

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ohh ya,happy belated bdae to shannon tang . should be posting tis ytd.
damn,weather is shoo hot. guess going to have heat strock liao lahhs !
i gotten cheer myself up. i cant let tis mood affect tml . shit man ! comeon...comeon,laugh out pls ! hahahahahahahaha...pls laugh. damn it.

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im here again! heart damn pain.damn it. why am i always feeling lik tis?
baichi.im such a baichi.

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happy bdae shan shan jie !

HAPPY BDAE TO SHAN SHAN !
ah jie ar,15 year old liao. stay chio alrite. and have a wonderful bdae. hope you will lik the present.

today out wit jiahui,liing,mabel,weiting and go subway eat.
dhn jiahui and liqing went home. Dhn weiting,mabel and mie went to ......
and,i decide on sth.

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hello !! welcome to my new blog. tag more alrite. i will try nt to let my blog dead.
when to bishan with mabel and weiting after school. finally,buy some ppl present liao. was intending to buy story book,bt suddenly noo mood to buy liao . actually might goo bugis today de . bt we tink we will keep to our plan ba , fri dhn goo . hav alot of fun ! my leg damn pain nw de lurhhs . and ar , one gd news , after 8months22days,we're back !! bt somehow,im still waiting for tat one person . 10months liao ba ? i hope he wont c tis post . i dun wan to disturb hym . bt somehow,in my heart,i hope...everytink will be alrite .

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